Big News!

It's been a while since I've written, but it doesn't mean that not much has happened! Just the opposite, A LOT is going on right now! I just haven't written because it's hard for me to keep secrets!

Now that I've kept you waiting, here's the news: We're having a baby!!

I'm 15 weeks already today, which is CRAZY! It's going by very, very fast! Way too fast! I'm still adjusting to the news myself these days. We were waiting to announce it until we had a few doctor's visits and an ultrasound to make sure things were going good. And they are. Things look normal, and my due date is set for October 19!

To be completely honest, though, I was not prepared to be pregnant just yet. I mean, we've always known we wanted more kids and that God was pushing us towards more, but I felt like it would at least be a few more months to a year. So, the day I took the test and it was positive, I just sat down and sobbed. And I really think I cried for about 2 weeks straight. I know that sounds bad, but with two small children at home..I honestly wondered if I could handle another baby right now. And selfishly, I just wanted my body to myself for a little longer. I had been pregnant/breastfeeding for almost 3 years straight!!! I had just finished breastfeeding Hannah approximately one month before I became pregnant again. And, I was losing all the weight from both pregnancies and was getting into clothes that I wore when I was first married! I was really starting to feel good, and my own woman again!

But God is so faithful! And He has such great plans for my life, way beyond my imagination! It took me a little while to become adjusted, but God has been with me the whole time. And I can definitely feel His peace in this situation! He will never give me more than I can handle (even though it might not be easy, either)! And He's definitely reminding me of all the things I love about little babies. The snuggle times, their complete dependence on me, and just being so cute and soft! So I'm really getting excited about our new little bundle of joy!

Anyways, just wanted to share our good news and I'll be back to post more about this pregnancy so far!

I'm having an emotional day!

I don't have these too often, but today I just woke up crying and haven't been able to stop! It's alot of different things piled into one, but the biggest one is just thinking about today being "Good Friday." We've been doing a Passover play at our church, and Josh and I have been helping. He is one of the disciples, and I've been helping serve. Just being there makes you think back to what it must have been like for Jesus that night. Knowing that he was going to be betrayed, knowing he would be crucified very soon. I can't even imagine. And all for me?

I can't help but to bawl my eyes out when I think about God watching Jesus grow up. From being a baby to a toddler, a child, a teenager, and then an adult. Jesus was His Son and He watched Him grow up, and yet He knew one day He would be crucified. For me. When I think about my own children, that's really hard to think about. That kind of love is unbelieveable, unconceivable, to my human mind. And yet God loves us that much. Thank you Lord for loving me that much!

I must go now, I can't even see what I'm writing through these tears!

Don't judge me!

So, I just finished reading "Twilight" for the 4th time!

Here's the reasoning behind it. I read it the first time honestly going into it not knowing it was about vampires. Rebekah, my sis-in-law, just told me to read it and I would like it. So I trusted her. The second time I read it, I wanted to read it from the beginning knowing everything. I like to break things down, and really dissect what's being said. Almost to the point that I'm looking for errors. The third time: I read it again before I watched the movie. I put off watching the movie for over a year after it came out on dvd. I knew it would ruin the book, and it definitely did not do it justice! I now just finished reading it for the fourth time. I can't explain this last time. I had watched parts of the movie again because it was on tv, and it really was irking me what all they left out of the movie. I saw the book lying there, and I couldn't help myself. For some reason, the book needed redeeming in my head.

Seriously, don't judge me!

It's a waiting game...

Well, I haven't blogged in a LONG time and I know there's alot that's happening, but I've been so scatterbrained lately I'm not sure I'll remember it all. But I'll see what I can do! It might be a hodge podge of things!

My sweet babies are doing great! Elijah is talking nonstop now, which I NEVER get tired of! He's always asking questions and it's so interesting what his little mind is thinking about. We waited so long for him to start talking, that I'm just enjoying every minute of it. I never knew that young children could learn so quickly, but he has new words every day. And alot of the time, I have no idea where he's learning it from. And he can reason with me too. For example, the other day I was in the shower and he likes to hand me my towel. Well I asked him for it, and he proceeded to tell me that it was dirty and I needed a new towel. haha. I thought it was funny!

Hannah is doing great too! She's even saying a few words of her own, so I know she's going to be fine. She's always been ahead of the game, and I think it's because she doesn't want to be left behind!

Josh sold his truck yesterday, so we are down to one vehicle again. This seems to be the norm for us! But hopefully he'll find something soon!

We actually went out on a date last night! It was my birthday, and man have I been wanting a good steak lately!! So he took me out to Logan's Steakhouse. It was really good! And nice to be out on our own.

Now, I'm just waiting on my husband to call. He's working in town, and I'll go pick him up when he's done. Then we are off to some friends' house for some grilled chicken wings!! Yummy!

Better night!

Well, last night before we put Elijah to bed we decided to pray over his sleeping. So, while he was laying in bed we just prayed that any fear or anxiety he was feeling would be gone, and he would only feel peace all night. The whole time we were praying, he was laughing and squirming around, and he talked in bed for another hour and a half. But he slept all night!! Thank you Jesus! He woke up around 7, but that's fine! I can handle that! I think my body was still used to getting up with him, though, because every few hours I found myself waking up and listening for any sounds. Hopefully, the sleeping all night will continue!

Anyways, not too much else going on with us. Let's see... For Valentine's day, Abbie came over Saturday night and watched the babies for us. We went out to eat, and then went and saw Valentine's day. It was so nice to get out alone and have a date night. I don't think we've had one of those in months! We could actually talk to one another without having to divide our attention on the babies. It's strange though. Because we get out alone together, and then most of what we talk about involves the babies. So they are obviously always on our minds. :)

Josh is taking some classes to be a volunteer firefighter. The classes are Tuesday nights and all day Saturday. He seems to be enjoying it. His hopes are to eventually be employed with a station. That way we can have a steady income, and he can do his handyman work on the side. We've really felt God leading us in this, so be praying that it works out. And for Josh's safety.

Other than that, the babies and I have just been hanging out at the house as usual. They are growing up so fast. So independent. Elijah's talking really good now, and Hannah is even saying a few words of her own. Next step for us: Potty training! We're gonna wait a few more months.

Anyways, that's about it. I'll write more when there's more to say!

Issues.

Sleep issues. The worst kind.

Well, I used to brag about how well my oldest child slept. He's always slept great at night, and took long naps. Well, lately, that has not been the case at all. I don't mind the naptimes that much. But at night, he should be sleeping!!!

Here's the deal: He fights naptime. Doesn't sleep good for naps. Then we put him down around 8:30-9 and he fights that. He finally goes to sleep, and then wakes up screaming "mama" at random times in the middle of the night. I go to check on him, and make him lay down. Then he wakes up super early in the morning.

This has been going on for like 2 weeks now. And I can't just ignore him altogether, because Hannah sleeps in the room with him.

I have absolutely NO idea what to do! When I go to check on him, he's usually just sitting up in bed, and I lay him down and he goes right back to sleep. So he doesn't stay up or anything, but then when I get back in bed, it takes me like 2 hours to get back to sleep. So I have felt exhausted and drained. And that's never fun.

Anyone have any suggestions???

It's a new dawn. It's a new day.

It's a new life for me! And I'm feeling good!

I really like that song, but it's not what I was going to write about!

Today is the first of February, and a good time to start a workout/diet plan! I was doing really good before the holidays; I had actually lost about 15 pounds! But Thanksgiving and Christmas did bad things...

So I ordered a new workout video. It's called "30 Day Shred" with Jillian from Biggest Loser. I started it today, and I'm already feeling the burn. It's amazing what being lazy for 2 months can do to your body! She's pretty intense though, but not overly annoying. So hopefully in 30 days I'll have lost all that weight again and be back in shape! I feel really excited about it! So here's hoping!