Thus far..

Well, I think this is going to be a complete blog about my pregnancy thus far. So, if you don't want to read about it, feel free to skip over!

I am now almost 16 weeks, and I think I'm finally over the morning sickness. It was WAY worse with this pregnancy. I don't know if it actually was or it just felt like it because I was trying to take care of two babies while going through it. It is very difficult changing diapers while you are already feeling sick. So I'm definitely glad we are over that stage!

I have alot of issues though, so pregnancies are not easy. I'm considered "high-risk" because of several different things. First issue: Previous blood clot. When I was first married I got a blood clot in my leg that they think was caused by the birth control I was using. So I always am at risk of forming one again. And when you are pregnant you are at a higher risk of forming them again. So now I have to give myself blood thinners in the form of an injection. And the worst part, I have to inject it in the belly! Twice a day! My poor bruised belly.

Second issue: two previous pre-term babies. My first, Elijah, was actually born at 33 weeks- 7 weeks early! Looking back, wow, that's scary! At the time I had perfect peace, and I could definitely feel all the prayers. And he turned out to be fine! He had to be on oxygen for a few days, and we took him home in a week! It really could have been alot worse. I know God was protecting my little boy! Then when I was having my second, Hannah, she tried to come about the same time. Luckily this time, I kinda knew what to expect, so we made it to the hospital in time to stop my contractions. I was then put on bedrest, and had to take a medicine every 4 hours to keep the contractions at bay. We made it all the way to 37 weeks which was definitely an accomplishment! This time they want me to start Progesterone injections to help with preterm labor. I haven't completely decided if I want to do it. It's a weekly shot, in the butt!! And I don't really know much about it...

Third issue: Gestational diabetes. I had it with both my babies. So I had to be on a special diet, and check my blood sugar like 4 times a day. The issue with this is that when you have it, your body doesn't produce enough insulin to counteract the glucose (sugar) in your bloodstream. This can be harmful for the baby, because the glucose can go straight to the baby. This can cause the baby to gain more weight, which can lead to pre-term labor and other issues. So they tested me early for it this time, and I failed the first test. They then do a longer, more comprehensive test to test you again. And I passed!! I was so happy! Because I really didn't want to start that strict diet so early. I'll have to take the test again around 28 weeks, but that's fine!

Because of all the issues I have to see a specialist in Albany. I have to see him every month for now, and they do an ultrasound every time to make sure there are no problems. I also have to see my regular doctor once a month for prenatal visits, and I have to also go get regular blood tests done to make sure the blood thinners are doing what they need to. Anyways, the ultrasounds are cool..but all the visits are just exhausting! I don't take the babies with me, because I can't watch them when I'm being seen...so I have to find babysitters as well.

It's been hard this time around. I feel resentful every time I give myself a shot. I just wonder why all of this had to happen, and why can't I just have normal pregnancies. I'm constantly worried about something. If I wake up with a pain in my leg or chest, do I have another blood clot?? A weird feeling in my belly, was that a contraction?? I know God is taking care of me, but it's hard not to worry when you are pregnant. But I'm dealing with it. I know it could be a lot worse.

I know this whole post sounds like a big complaint. I'm sorry. But sometimes I just need to complain and get it out there. To clear things up, though, I feel very blessed to be pregnant again. Even with the issues. I love my children more than anything, and I would go through 100 times worse just to have them! I know this baby is only going to be a blessing, and I really am very excited! I promise to be more positive next time! :)