I'm pooped!

Well, I think the title speaks for itself! This is been one of the most exhausting and challenging weeks ever! Josh left for Texas, as I said in by last blog, on Tuesday. The week started out pretty good, I had convinced myself that I could handle it all alone! Then, things started getting bad. Hannah, for one, has stopped sleeping through the night. And she wakes up at different times at night, so I can't even prepare myself on when it might be. I think things are always worse when you haven't had sleep. And then Elijah has been on and off sick. I don't really know what's going on with him. One day, he had an awful rash all over his body. Then it was gone the next day. He's been running a fever too, and not eating. I think it might all just be teething, but he has not been happy! Maybe he was just missing his daddy a little too.

Everything came to a head Saturday night. Both babies were super fussy, I was sleep deprived, and then...I practically broke the nail on my big toe off by shutting a closet door on it! I just broke down and cried, we all cried. But then..bed time came! Blessed bed time. A time when the whole house is silent. I really love that time. So, I sat down in the silence and remembered that my husband would be home tomorrow. I couldn't wait! Another adult to help with the babies, an adult to have an adult conversation with! My best friend in the world would be back tomorrow, and things would be ok.

Sunday was alot better. We didn't go to church, but that's ok. I really don't think I could have handled getting everyone ready, and carrying everything into church. So we used that day to rest! We all took pretty long naps, and I felt alot better!

Josh flew in pretty late that night into Jacksonville, and then he had to drive the close to 3 hour drive home. So he got in about 1:30, so I stayed up to greet him! He really makes my world so much better. He keeps me calm, makes me laugh when I get hysterical, and just helps out more than I could ever ask. I will try to never take him for granted. Maybe that's what this week was for, to show me how much he does for us. I also decided that he was not going on any long trips without me again!

Good and Bad News

Well, I guess I'll start with the good news first. I finally got Hannah back to nursing! I say finally, but it had only been 4 days. But those days have been the most frustrating days ever! I had to pump which I really don't like doing since my first child. And not to mention, the feeling of rejection that came over me when she wouldn't have anything to do with me. I guess I just wasn't ready to give it up quite yet. So I just kept trying and trying every feeding. And then at her last feeding on Sunday, I tried and she just started like there had never been a problem at all! And she's been doing fine ever since. I got some good information from a few friends, and I really think she was teething and it may have just been painful for her. All I can say is that I'm glad we are back to normal!

Now, for the bad news. My husband left for Texas this morning for a week. His brother lives out there, and he's going to be working on his house to get it ready to sell. It's a good working opportunity, but I'm gonna be all alone with both babies! I haven't done this for such a long period of time, so I'm kinda nervous. I think this week will be all about surviving! He's probably flying out as we speak, so I'm nervous about the flying issue too. So anyone reading, please pray for traveling mercies as he goes and comes back.

Breastfeeding Difficulties

So, I have a baby girl named Hannah who is almost 8 months old, who just has been refusing to breastfeed for the last two days. I have no idea what's going on, but it is sooo frustrating! It seems like she just woke up yesterday, and decided she was done with me! She never nursed at all yesterday, and by that night she was so irritable. So we gave her some expressed milk through a syringe just to give her a little. She fell asleep, and then woke up this morning very hungry. So I tried and tried all morning, until we were both just beyond upset. I really felt like she might be getting dehydrated, so I got desperate. I had some formula on hand, so I made up a little and she sucked it right down! This is strange because we've never been able to get her to take a bottle. So she really must have been desperate for anything. And now she just took another bottle, after I tried nursing.

I really, really wanted to try and make it to a year, but I can't make her eat when she won't. I'm not giving up just yet. The only problem is I have to keep pumping or I won't be able to keep up with her. I really loathe pumping!

So, if anyone has any suggestions..I will definitely listen!

Giving it a try!

Well, I've tried to have blogs before but everytime it seems as I'm really good about it at the beginning, but then..I lose interest. Or life just happens and it seems like there is no way for me to possibly catch up.

I have a few friends on here that blog, so I thought I'd try again. This time, it may just be ramblings or life stories. Whatever I feel like writing, because then maybe I won't feel as much pressure to keep this thing up!

So, for those of you who happen to read..Beware, it may not make any sense at all! But happy reading!