MIA

Well, it really feels like I've been missing in all the action. You don't realize how much news you hear through facebook! We are just existing in our own little bubble here. Especially this week. All the babies have gotten a bad cold, and man, was it rough! Fever, runny nose, coughing, no appetites, and super cranky. But we're almost through with it!

Elijah got it first, and then he passed it on to Rachel. I wasn't too worried about him, but when she got it she was real wheezy and struggling to breathe a lot. It was very scary. I took her to the doctor just to make sure it wasn't worse than I thought, and she said it was bronchilytis (?) but she also had a really bad ear infection. So I'm glad I took her because of that. That explains the no eating/no sleeping! So this week was rough with that. She's not sleeping through the night anymore, and for a few nights there, I think we slept for a total of 3 hours each night! I told Josh that she must be a tennis fan, because we watched alot of the Austrailian Open! Anyways, she's doing ALOT better, and now Hannah is going through the last stages of it.

Weeks like this make me want to stay inside all winter, so we aren't exposed to anything else. But what a boring life that would be!

Halfway there...

Well, we are about halfway through the month of January, which means I'm about halfway through with my month-long fast. And it's been going great!

I think the first week was the hardest. I had definitely developed some habits with getting on facebook. I would wake up first thing in the morning, and eat breakfast and just look at different things on facebook and other sites. Now, I've replaced that time with prayer and Bible reading. So, that's been really good for me.

And then in the afternoons, I would get bored and just go and snack, snack, snack to fill the time. This is still really hard for me. I really do love to eat. haha. And I'm still snacking, but just trying to find healthier foods, and trying to not just eat because I'm bored. So this area still needs some work. A lot of the time I find myself walking into the kitchen, then realizing what I was about to do, and then just turning right back around. But I do find myself praying for help a lot. haha..does that count? :)

Anyways, I have noticed a difference. Mostly in my attitude. Especially towards my children and my husband. I've started seeing my children in a different light lately, and if it's possible...it feels like I love them even more. Not that we don't have bad days still, but overall it's been a lot better.

I don't know why I do this to myself. I stumble so far, and then dread coming back. But as soon as I start reading the word and praying, I feel 100 times better. And it's never hard. I always feel like getting back to the place I need to be will be like pulling teeth or something, but it's so easy. He makes it so incredibly easy. Why oh why does it take me so long?

3 Months!

Wow, I cannot believe Rachel is 3 months old today! I look at her, and she's still my little newborn. Although, she's really not so little anymore. And she's so interactive now. She smiles all the time, and she's laughing now. She not only smiles at me and Josh, but she also loves when Hannah and Elijah come near and she'll give them a big smile. And she's starting to "talk." She gets in these moods where she just goes on and on cooing and making sounds. It's like she's trying to have a conversation. It's so adorable. I really truly want her to stay little, she's just so darn cute and cuddly right now!



She's so happy! This is a BIG smile!





She's getting so big. And Long!



These pictures make me smile! This is how I usually find her in the morning!


How could I not be happy to get her out of bed??