Something new...

For a long time now, I've really felt like something new is about to happen in our lives. Of course, most of you would say.."Um, yeah, a new baby!" But it's really been different from that. Like God has been slowly preparing my heart for a big change. The problem is that I have NO idea what this could entail. And this is a problem because I'm a huge planner. I like to know what's going to happen, and when things change it takes me a while to adjust. Josh is totally the opposite. He would fly to Austrailia tomorrow if something came up and he needed to do that. So, he's been rubbing off on me for the last 8 years or so. And it's not AS hard for me to be spontaneous as it used to be.

But, like I said, it's almost like God is slowly preparing me for this change. And right now, I'm sooo ready! I'm to the point now where I feel like "ok, bring it on!" And this is seriously a very new place for me!

The only hard part now is...the waiting! I'm trying to be as patient as possible, but that's also one of my faults. So in all of this, God is teaching me to be spontaneous, but to be patient at the same time. And wow, I am struggling.

Josh and I went up to be prayed for last week, and the people who prayed really hit some things dead on. They said while we were in this place of waiting, we really needed to get into the Word, which we had both been feeling. So we started a new "read through the Bible" plan together, and it's been really good for me! We have been reading seperately and then coming together at night to talk about it. I not only feel closer to God, but to Josh as well. So I'm really enjoying it!

Anyways, I really just needed to get that off my chest. :) And hopefully, this big change will come soon! Who knows, maybe it's just a change that needs to be made in us. We'll see!

It seems like I can't get this blogging thing down. I think about blogging, but when I actually sit down to do anything I almost always end up going to check on my kids because one of them is screaming! It's constant. They fight a lot! Hannah is definitely an instigator and she knows how to pester Elijah, and Elijah is just a big tattle tale. Some days it's really quite exhausting! But then they have moments like this:

And it really makes my heart melt! They really do love one another, and they also play A LOT! They entertain one another, and many times throughout the day I hear them laughing at each other! Like really rolling on the floor laughing- it's so cute! Must be their inside jokes or something. So I guess I'll just have to take the bad with the good!

In other news, we had a pretty good week down at the river for the fourth. We were only going to stay a few days, but because of some different circumstances, the babies and I ended up staying all week. Josh came home to get some work done, and then rejoined us again at the end of the week. Overall, it was a pretty good week. We had some ups and downs with a few people at the beginning of the week, but after they left it was really great. Very relaxing, and just good to be away from home. Josh's older brother Chris and his family came down from Nashville, TN the next weekend and it was good to see them. Elijah and Hannah were kinda old enough this year to be able to play with their youngest, Winston, so that was fun to watch! Here's a picture of them:

I also had another ultrasound yesterday, and they said everything looked really good. My amniotic fluid had increased to a very normal amount, so I was very happy to hear that! You don't realize how much you are stressing about something on the inside, until something happens to release it. And as soon as she said the numbers, something fell off. I'm definitely still struggling with not worrying. I know Jesus died for all diseases/sickness to be under His authority and ours too, but sometimes it's hard to apply. I'm working on it, though! How differently we could all live if we really took that to heart! I really want to live in that kind of victory!

Josh's work has been really slow lately, too, but God is definitely taking care of us. And we're learning how to be good stewards with our money for sure! This week was exceptionally slow, so he's taking time to work on the rental house we own in Valdosta. It needed a lot of work after some renters moved out, so it'll be good when that's all finished. That way we can either try to sell it or just rent it again, and that will be some sort of income coming in!

Here at the house, I am still working with Elijah and potty training. I always knew it would be hard, but the emotions that come with it are so extreme. I mean dancing for joy when he goes in the potty, and then wanting to just bawl and scream when it doesn't seem like he's getting it! But we are making progress! The last few days he has been wearing underwear, and has had NO pee-pee accidents. We comes and tells me when he has to pee pee too! So I'm really proud of him. Now I just have to figure out how to get him to do Number 2 in the potty. Should be interesting! Sorry for all the potty talk, but that's one of the big issues in my life right now! :)

Anyways, that's about it for now! And I'm in need of a shower, so I'll blog again later!

Too long!

Gosh, I just realized that I haven't written on here in almost a month! Seems crazy, because that means a WHOLE month has slipped away already. Lately I've felt time just flying by, and there's no slowing it down!

I'll try to update as much as I can. Not all the much really goes on around here during the day. My days are pretty much exactly the same. We eat breakfast, the babies play and I usually take a shower, we eat lunch, Naptime (which I usually partake in these days), more playing, and then time for supper and bedtime. We break up the monotomy with visits to family/friends, library visits, doctor visits, and grocery store visits! haha :) What an exciting life you lead when you have toddlers! :)

Usually I don't mind in the least, but lately I've been feeling weird. A little on the worthless side. Like, is this all my life is? Changing diapers and making meals? Because it really feels like these two things take up about 75% of my time! Just being honest! And sometimes I struggle with the fact that I'm staying home, and not helping bring in any money. I think this is really all stemming from the fact that Josh's work has been really slow lately, and we've been tight on money because of it. I know God is taking care of us, but it's really, really hard sometimes to trust when you have a house payment staring you in the face! And I feel like I can't even contribute anything!

I also know that my time with my two babies is precious, and if I had to go back to work, I would seriously hate being away from them. They do such amazing things every day, and I couldn't imagine not being able to be a part of that! And I know that this feeling of worthlessness is really just a lie straight from the devil! I think this is why I haven't blogged in a while. Just trying to deal with a lot of different emotions. And being pregnant definitely doesn't help the plethora of emotions!

In other news, we are slowing going about potty training with Elijah. Every time I change his diaper, I take him to the potty. And just various times during the day. And he always pees, even if it is just a little bit! But this is progress to me!! We haven't been pushing it real hard because we've been going out of town a lot for the summer. But as soon as it calms down around here, I'm gonna move to my new next step. Underwear! Does anyone have any suggestions on any? People have told me about some types that make them feel wet, but don't make as much mess. I've done a little research online, but I haven't decided on anything.

I also went to the specialist doctor today and had an ultrasound. He said that the amniotic fluid around the baby is a little low. Still in the normal range, but just on the low side. So I'm scheduled for several more ultrasounds in the next month to monitor that. I know that I shouldn't be worried, he told me not to be worried, but does anyone else feel like when it rains, it pours?? Because sometimes I can't help feeling overwhelmed with everything. So please pray that my levels would increase and there are no underlying problems going on. That would definitely be appreciated. :)

Well, we are getting ready to go down to the river for several days for the fourth. We leave tomorrow, so I should probably get on the washing of clothes and packing! I'm excited about going this year. Time with family is always good! And it doesn't hurt having extra help with the babies, and getting fed all your meals! I love that part! :)