Big News!

It's been a while since I've written, but it doesn't mean that not much has happened! Just the opposite, A LOT is going on right now! I just haven't written because it's hard for me to keep secrets!

Now that I've kept you waiting, here's the news: We're having a baby!!

I'm 15 weeks already today, which is CRAZY! It's going by very, very fast! Way too fast! I'm still adjusting to the news myself these days. We were waiting to announce it until we had a few doctor's visits and an ultrasound to make sure things were going good. And they are. Things look normal, and my due date is set for October 19!

To be completely honest, though, I was not prepared to be pregnant just yet. I mean, we've always known we wanted more kids and that God was pushing us towards more, but I felt like it would at least be a few more months to a year. So, the day I took the test and it was positive, I just sat down and sobbed. And I really think I cried for about 2 weeks straight. I know that sounds bad, but with two small children at home..I honestly wondered if I could handle another baby right now. And selfishly, I just wanted my body to myself for a little longer. I had been pregnant/breastfeeding for almost 3 years straight!!! I had just finished breastfeeding Hannah approximately one month before I became pregnant again. And, I was losing all the weight from both pregnancies and was getting into clothes that I wore when I was first married! I was really starting to feel good, and my own woman again!

But God is so faithful! And He has such great plans for my life, way beyond my imagination! It took me a little while to become adjusted, but God has been with me the whole time. And I can definitely feel His peace in this situation! He will never give me more than I can handle (even though it might not be easy, either)! And He's definitely reminding me of all the things I love about little babies. The snuggle times, their complete dependence on me, and just being so cute and soft! So I'm really getting excited about our new little bundle of joy!

Anyways, just wanted to share our good news and I'll be back to post more about this pregnancy so far!

I'm having an emotional day!

I don't have these too often, but today I just woke up crying and haven't been able to stop! It's alot of different things piled into one, but the biggest one is just thinking about today being "Good Friday." We've been doing a Passover play at our church, and Josh and I have been helping. He is one of the disciples, and I've been helping serve. Just being there makes you think back to what it must have been like for Jesus that night. Knowing that he was going to be betrayed, knowing he would be crucified very soon. I can't even imagine. And all for me?

I can't help but to bawl my eyes out when I think about God watching Jesus grow up. From being a baby to a toddler, a child, a teenager, and then an adult. Jesus was His Son and He watched Him grow up, and yet He knew one day He would be crucified. For me. When I think about my own children, that's really hard to think about. That kind of love is unbelieveable, unconceivable, to my human mind. And yet God loves us that much. Thank you Lord for loving me that much!

I must go now, I can't even see what I'm writing through these tears!